My how time flies when you're having fu.....
It's been a lot of things but fun
definitely hasn't been one of them. As you can see from my previous post, I have been recently fired and that was going to be the start of a new blog as my new life as a househusband.
But you know, I can't stay away from Hallowe'en. It's my passion, my life and it actually gets my sorry rear out of bed a lot of days so I owe it to Hallowe'en and myself to keep this continuing. Is blogging a thing anymore? Is it all Tumblr and Instagram and Facebook now? I have no idea. I hope that there are some of you still out there.
During my length of absence, I had (failed) back surgery (4 screws and 3 rods plus a synthetic disk), we adopted a kid (a boy who just had his 12th birthday), was a manager of a health food restaurant, and got fired from a company out of retaliation for reporting harassment, and a couple of other things. Probably something else in there I did but that's the highlights. I haven't decorated much at all since 2011; I couldn't lift more than 10 pounds without excruciating pain so I let it all slide. And while it slid, I slid with it. It actually felt like a piece of my soul was gone, and yeah, I know that sounds hokey but it is true. Hallowe'en was and is a part of me.
Old, Gay and Gray
When you look into the mirror and the person on the other side looks like a FaceApp pic, you know you're in deep poo poo. I have to tell people that mentally, I am about 22, physically, it feels like 104 1/2. After I was fired, I was pretty (very) depressed, I felt like a failure so I did what any rational, logical person would do...I pulled out my Tarot deck.
Never really gave much credence in Tarot until I had a reading from a voodoo priestess in New Orleans and except for one or two small things, she nailed it. I have always been somewhat (very) interested in the occult, I have seen and experienced a LOT of weird stuff that can only be defined as paranormal. Whether the Tarot is paranormal or a good way to gain insight in yourself by what you read into in a draw of some cards, I don't know but it works for me.
This was my very first spread and it said this:
Inverted XIII swords: I have been limiting myself in my creativity and not cutting myself enough slack
Upright queen of swords: I need to get my butt in gear and focus. There is someone nearby that is going to be helping you on a new endeavor and you need to remain clear and focused. (This one is eerily correct)\
Upright VII Pentacles: In the long term, there will be fruit to the labors what I am doing. Just persevere and everything will work out.
Daaaaaaaang, right on the money. I suddenly felt better. I had hope again.
I was by myself one night last week and I decided to ask a pointed question: Where am I right now? I shuffled the deck 3 times and cut them and drew the card....
Wow.
The Fool.
To those unfamiliar with the Tarot, this is a very important card, the first in the deck. This one said to me that I'm starting over, I'm on a new adventure and basically today is the first day of the rest of your new life.
I'll take that any day....