Dang, it's been 5 years.

My how time flies when you're having fu.....

It's been a lot of things but fun definitely hasn't been one of them.  As you can see from my previous post, I have been recently fired and that was going to be the start of a new blog as my new life as a househusband.

But you know, I can't stay away from Hallowe'en.  It's my passion, my life and it actually gets my sorry rear out of bed a lot of days so I owe it to Hallowe'en and myself to keep this continuing.  Is blogging a thing anymore?  Is it all Tumblr and Instagram and Facebook now?   I have no idea. I hope that there are some of you still out there.

During my length of absence, I had (failed) back surgery (4 screws and 3 rods plus a synthetic disk), we adopted a kid (a boy who just had his 12th birthday), was a manager of a health food restaurant, and got fired from a company out of retaliation for reporting harassment, and a couple of other things. Probably something else in there I did but that's the highlights. I haven't decorated much at all since 2011; I couldn't lift more than 10 pounds without excruciating pain so I let it all slide.  And while it slid, I slid with it.  It actually felt like a piece of my soul was gone, and yeah, I know that sounds hokey but it is true.  Hallowe'en was and is a part of me.

                                    Old, Gay and Gray

When you look into the mirror and the person on the other side looks like a FaceApp pic, you know you're in deep poo poo.  I have to tell people that mentally, I am about 22, physically, it feels like 104 1/2.   After I was fired, I was pretty (very) depressed, I felt like a failure so I did what any rational, logical person would do...I pulled out my Tarot deck.

Never really gave much credence in Tarot until I had a reading from a voodoo priestess in New Orleans and except for one or two small things, she nailed it. I have always been somewhat (very) interested in the occult, I have seen and experienced a LOT of weird stuff that can only be defined as paranormal.  Whether the Tarot is paranormal or a good way to gain insight in yourself by what you read into in a draw of some cards, I don't know but it works for me.

This was my very first spread and it said this: 

Inverted XIII swords:  I have been limiting myself in my creativity and not cutting myself enough slack

Upright queen of swords:  I need to get my butt in gear and focus.  There is someone nearby that is going to be helping you on a new endeavor and you need to remain clear and focused. (This one is eerily correct)\

Upright VII Pentacles:  In the long term, there will be fruit to the labors what I am doing.  Just persevere and everything will work out.

Daaaaaaaang, right on the money.  I suddenly felt better.  I had hope again.  

I was by myself one night last week and I decided to ask a pointed question: Where am I right now?  I shuffled the deck 3 times and cut them and drew the card....

Wow.

The Fool.

To those unfamiliar with the Tarot, this is a very important card, the first in the deck.  This one said to me that I'm starting over, I'm on a new adventure and basically today is the first day of the rest of your new life. 

I'll take that any day....